Notes on Crazy (the blog, at least) turns one today. Cool huh? Well, I think it’s neat. Happy birthday to me!
This is a much easier thing to celebrate than real life birthdays. The real person that is me, the Natalie person, has a birthday and thinks “…and?” Am I supposed to celebrate surviving another year? It always feels strange (at best) and shameful (at…medium).
But this is so different!
Today Nattily, however exactly Natalie chooses to represent that part of herself online, has not only survived a year, but authored some interesting posts, had links shared around the autistic community and tangential communities, and moved readers to tears with just her words (or so I’ve been told).
Sure, she’s had her fair share of “why does everyone hate everyone?” She’s wanted to curl into a ball many times, and then she’s done just that nearly as many times.
But she’s also uncurled herself, learned something about herself or others from the experience, and been generally better for it. Well, probably.
So to celebrate, I’m listing off posts I’m proud of. A list of my all-time most viewed posts, and a list of my all-time personal favorite posts. Because these are things I did, that mean something to me, that mean something to others, that exist because I damn well made them exist at some point in this last year, along with all the rest of this year’s 147 (…oh wow) published posts.
That is irrefutable cause for celebration.
Notes On Crazy’s Most Viewed Posts (Year 1)
- Thoughts on Todoist (Basically I Like It) – a raving celebration of Todoist, my personal favorite of the executive function apps I reviewed in this post (also on the top viewed list) here.
- Auditory Processing Disorders: Academics and Experience Collide Again – a mostly informative/educational talk about central auditory processing disorders based in my academic studies in a speech pathology program, but also quite a bit of what works and what doesn’t with my personal experience with my CAPD
- Why Everyone Needs to Use Whatever the Fuck Language They Want - an impassioned plea/tirade/something for those of us who are easily triggered to stop trying to force living, breathing languages to accommodate us instead of admitting that upsetting words used without malicious intent aren’t evil, and that demanding society respect our status as “victim” (or else) instead of appealing to human kindness and compassion maybe hurts the cause we are working for
- Proud To Be A Grad School Drop-Out: #AutismPositivity2014 - my submission to the Autism Positivity 2014 flashblog, explaining what being in a master’s program in speech-language pathology was like for me as I worked to accept my autism, and my much criticized decision to walk away from that program I couldn’t reconcile my own ethics with
- My Identity is not Your Enemy: Stop Combatting Me – my submission to the Stop Combatting Me flashblog – that called for reform of the “Combatting Autism Act” – about my experiences since very early childhood knowing I was different and trying to identify how, and feeling so much at home when I put the word “autistic” to the differences I saw
Nattily’s Favorite Posts (Year 1)
In no particular order…
- Because You Kinda Hope You’re Autistic – a look at why self-diagnosed or adult-diagnosed autistics feel so shameful about claiming to know themselves better than others do, when that’s a perfectly reasonable way to feel
- The Non-Verbal Fairy – my first thoughts about admitting that occasionally losing my speech when overwhelmed, and what it would be like to really believe that it’s not “all in my head” (followed by part 2 and part 3, if you’re interested)
- An Open Letter to Dan, Danny, and Abed* – part of my Television Perseveration series, a heartfelt message to the creators of a character that let me accept myself as an autistic person, and who means more to me as a fictional being than a lot of real people in my life
- And It Hurts, Except When It Doesn’t – a good hard look at why “fake it till you make it” can be the best thing, the worst thing, or just something you can’t let go of for some unnamed reason, until you can let go of it
- in the end i only see beauty – an attempt to just barely touch the surface of my incredibly complex love/hate/everything in between relationship with ballet, and the best explanation I can put into words for why it will always be a part of me
- Dear Nattily, Love Nattily & Atypical Pain Expression – a pair of posts about perceiving and interpreting my physical pain and discomfort in atypical and often unproductive and unsafe ways (I talked about the neurology of my pain perception more nerdily in my post Brains and Pain and Brain Pain)
- You Only Love Owls, Things I Wish People Didn’t Expect Me To Defend, & Lists on Lists and Lists of Lists – three posts, mostly unrelated except for their general lightheartedness, where I just get super autistic and talk about lists, obsessions, lists, quirks, lists, owls, phobias, lists, annoying people, and lists
And a special bonus list, because neither Nattily nor Notes On Crazy exists in a vacuum…
Favorite Posts From (A Few Of My) Favorite Bloggers (Nattily’s Year 1)
Again, in no particular order, and with no descriptions given because these amazing bloggers have incredible voices that should really speak for themselves…
- From Autisticook: Crying
- From Alana of sleep wake hope and then: You look like a stick figure to me (when I think about you in my brain) and also Poetry (because it’s my blog-o-versary and you can’t make me choose!)
- From Musings of an Aspie: the series Adult Diagnosis, which evolved into her first book, I Think I Might Be Autistic (and I’m sure Nerdy, Shy, and Socially Inappropriate will be on my list for next year!)
- From Robin of Invisible Autistic: Does not Compute….DOES NOT COMPUTE (An Analysis of a Meltdown)
- From Alex of Married With Aspergers: I See Her Sometimes
- From GenderMom: Confession: I Still See My Boy and her awesome new podcast
- From Ariane of Emma’s Hope Book: How I Made a Mistake and Was Given the Opportunity to Say I’m Sorry
- From Emma of Emma’s Hope Book: The Three Boxes ~ A Story
I am exhausted. I need some birthday cake. Or at least some blog-o-versary raspberry tart:
- Ok I have to admit it. This post about Abed is my all-time favorite of my own posts. It meant a lot more to me, and still does, than I think is immediately obvious to most readers.